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Writing Updates: Liberation – Devil Inside

Finished writing Devil Inside. Urk. Not sure how I feel about it. Whatever, it’s done and it was nothing more than a picky bunny. So no worries there, I suppose. It’s nice to sit down and actually write stories though! Man, I missed that. School didn’t often allot me time to sit and write like I wanted. Now I’m on break (still) and so I can do that.

Still trying to get all the financials worked out for my master’s program. AND, still waiting for graduation status to post. So while I’m waiting for those, I can’t actually enroll yet. So I need to call schools again on Tuesday (as Monday is a holiday).

Its Sunday anyways, so it’s a relaxing day. I might play some Agarest War since I’m still trying to beat it. I want Atelier Meruru to come out now! ;w;


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Writing Updates: Mist - TEotW

Rawr.

Been playing Agarest. Trying to get through it before Meruru comes out. Winfield has been a little more serious in this last generation. I can’t blame him; it must be difficult to be so close to the dark god that’s slowly consuming his soul.

Finally found out why Ladius was so damn stern and serious. Thanks Zerva and Vashtor, I hadn’t thought about it until it was mentioned but I can definitely tell you guys raised him! (This would also make sense since Zerva could be the child’s uncle. He might feel more inclined to really look after him and make sure his sister’s child grew up correctly.) The thought of Vashtor raising a child makes me chuckle a bit though, but this could be because of Ladius’s two fathers (well, the central parental figures would be closest to fathers); I think Zerva would be the stricter. It’s hard to imagine Vash as the softer of the two, but I think Zerva would be much stricter and Vash would end up being more lenient. I’m sure it’s mostly because Vash really does want to be forgiven (as well as he needs to be after so long). Anywqays, the point I’m making is that with guardians like Vash and Zerva, poor Ladius didn’t have a chance at having a personality. He was doomed to a strict lifestyle on a very distinct path. The two would have trained him for one thing and one thing only – hence his strict desire to complete his destiny.

You can tell that Win raised Thoma. And then it seems everyone spoiled the hell out of Duran causing him to be an uber brat. Then they did much better with Rex. Now pretty much every female wants to marry him though, which is kind of weird. I suppose it’s mostly because I find it odd that Sharona and Vira-Lorre should be so taken with him. Especially since Vira knew Leonhardt.

And actually it’s a bit more complicated than that as Ellis loved Leonhardt. Vira loved Ladius (I think it was Vira who mentioned Ladius). Plum loved Thoma. And I think that Sharona might have mentioned Duran at one point in context. But now everyone loves Rex (who is on all accounts a mix of every hero before him).

I’m going through the last generation now. But shops are still sporadic.

Almost done writing Devil Inside.

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Writing Updates: fate of the parasite queen – Devil Inside

Around noon yesterday the vet called and said Copper was coming out of the anesthesia. He did really well in surgery. They removed the tumor! At 3:50 we went to pick him up (they wanted to watch him for four hours). And he pranced out of the back down the hall when he saw me and D. Then he tried to bolt for the door when he saw it. Then he practically skipped across the parking lot and we brought him home, where he drank lots of water and wanted lots of food. You’re supposed to limit them because the anesthesia can cause vomiting. But Copper was just fine. So we left his water dish down for him and then fed him an hour afterwards. I think he’s in a little pain as he’s more restless and whiny than normal – but that’s to be expected as the tumor was in his mouth and he just got out of surgery. He wanted very badly to go on a walk this morning, so his behavior overall is very much the same as it has always been. It’s relieving! He’s asleep right now since we have to give him pain killers and antibiotics twice a day. So he’s clonked out from that.

Finished generation 4 on Record of Agarest war! I’m now playing as Rex, going to get Silvi back as soon as I can. Switch her in for Thoma. Silvi is great, she’s sweet and loving. Rex is also great, he’s very much like his forefathers (but definitely not as brooding as some of them). He’s got wings like his mother, but looks quite a bit more like Leonhardt than his father, Duran. In case that’s confusing, Leonhardt is Rex’s great-great grandfather. (Hmm that sounds wrong. Leo, Ladius, Thoma, Duran, Rex, so that’s two greats…okay there we go). Of the five, the only ones I’m not too fond of are Ladius and Duran.

I’m also weirded out by the fact that Alberti’s granddaughter joined us and helps out her granddad. It’s just because Alberti doesn’t look very old at all. Certainly not old enough to have a granddaughter at least. I can definitely see him having children, but adult grandchildren make my mind reel. He really ages well for a human! He’s been with us since generation 3 (assuming he was at least 16 on the low scale, plus 19 for generation 4, then 22 for generation 5. That could make him roughly 57ish. I allotted a year for each child to be born, but still he doesn’t look it!) so he should be pretty old by now, and he’s alive of his own doing (meaning he’s not cursed or blessed or anything). I suppose that’s not too unnatural, almost 60, takes good care of himself, he could definitely make it work. He could be older if he were say older than my initial estimate. Which could be true enough, I’d assume 18 or 19 too. Which would make him 2-3 years older.

In fact, I think Alberti and Beatrice are the only humans in the party (save for the at least one of the brides in every generation and Win). Everyone else has naturally long lifespan, excluding Win because he’s an idiot (no, really, he put on a cursed bracelet and is now immortal as he waits for the dark god to claim his soul. They’re trying to remove it but it’s not going well, they’d have to remove Win’s arm or kill the dark god. And Win is adamant about keeping his arm. So we tried to make another Hammer but someone ran off with one of the ingredients we needed. He’s human but cursed.).

I really need to go through skills and weapons again though. Shops are too far and in between in this generation though, so it’s kind of a pain in the butt. I suppose I could go back to one of the other continents for a shop though. Hrm.


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Writing Updates: Moonlight – Devil Inside

Got up at 6:20 this morning so we could get ready to take Copper to the vet. A couple of days ago we found something that looks like an abscess in his mouth, concerned we took him to the vet. They told us it was a malignant tumor and were concerned about it spreading to his lungs. We got x-rays and blood work done for him and it hadn’t spread as far as we could tell via the results. So we took him home and had to wait for the remaining results that would tell us if he is healthy enough to go into surgery. Yesterday evening we got the call that overall he seems okay. Nothing too bad, his liver enzymes are a little high and they’re unsure why. The tumor is definitely malignant and will spread quickly, it’s very aggressive in his mouth and if we can remove it that should help him. The concern is we’re not sure why his liver enzymes are so high, but hopefully, removing the tumor will help that. If it doesn’t there are obviously other issues he has to deal with. So I got up and walked him then we took him to the vet. And she gave me a rundown of everything, and if everything goes well they’ll remove the tumor, clean his teeth and he’ll be coming home this afternoon.

Most of the concern comes from his age (he’s 14) and the liver, but the vet isn’t sure what’s causing it and may not be even after the surgery because to tell they’d have to go into his liver which is too invasive. Despite that, the vet seems very hopeful that she can help him. And they’re going to do their best. I feel fairly relieved by that and I’m not as worried as I was when I left the vet this morning.

Copper’s been behaving the same as he always has, so, that’s another reason I’m not too concerned. He’s still playing, running, eating, napping all day – whatever he wants. His eating has been a little less lately but I’m wondering if that’s due to the tumor (as it’s in his mouth so it might be sore). But when he eats he cleans out his dish.

Just got back from grocery shopping, so glad that’s done. We have snacks again! (Yes, Mikari, they’re cookies and yes they’re oreos and chocolate chip.) Other than that, nothing too important to note.

Still trying to get all the financials and transcript stuff taken care of so I can start training to be a teacher.




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Writing Updates: Family – Devil Inside

Urk. No Meruru. So I’m finishing up Agarest as quickly as I can, thankfully it’s not too hard just a little tedious to get through the battle points. Then I need to finish up Alice (I’m on Chapter 4/6). But between nausea and headaches, I haven’t been able to sit down and focus on it (as it makes it so much worse). So Agarest first, then Alice equilibrium pending. I’m on Generation 4 (of 5) in Agarest, so I am getting somewhere.

In Agarest, I really only like Leonhardt (1st Generation) and Thoma (3rd Generation). The other leads aren’t as amusing for me. Duran can be kind of snarky, which is nice but he sends more time brooding about his meaningless existence and how he’s not like his hypocritical father. His father, Thoma, was awesome because he took after Winfield, so all he did was laze about and hit on women (haha, the only thing that would have made it funnier for me was if he started calling them his honies). Duran on the other hand hates everyone and thinks it’s stupid he has to live a short life that he couldn’t care less about. He’s mad at his father for whatever reason (this whole thing is Leonhardt’s fault). Basically Duran’s just brooding and angsting and it’s really annoying me – Leon and Thoma were both fairly upbeat, which I’m really happy about. But then Ladius (2nd Generation) was a little too focused on fulfilling his destiny, he reminds me of Leonis (Record of Agarest War Zero, 2nd Generation), and he’s kind of boring too. Lack of character development there. I’m hoping that Duran’s son isn’t anything like Duran.

Alberti reminds me of Cid though, too bad he uses daggers (otherwise I’d totally put him in the party). And Winfield reminds me of Vincent (dark hair, red bandana, guns, lost the woman he loved, pretty much immortal, and being taken over by darkness) except for the fact that Winfield is a flirt. XD And actually for the longest time, I called Winfield “Wincent” because of it. Now I just call him “Win.” One it’s shorter, two he’s made of Win (one would think he’d learn not to try and peek at the girls in the hot spring, but after 3 generations, he’s still doing it). He really breaks up the seriousness of the rest of the party, so it’s a nice change up.

Right now my party is Duran, Leonhardt, Silvi, Zerva, Faina, and Ellis. Not sure if I want to put Thoma back in, although I certainly could. Nothing says I have to use Duran. And Thoma’s not that far behind in level so it wouldn’t be too problematic. I also have Reverie, she’d probably be nice to put in too. She’s a spear wielder and she’s not too far behind in level either. Hrm, then who would I swap out? I suppose I don’t care one way or another about Duran or Faina (she’s a back up healer).

A big THANK YOU to Mikari for being awesome. (And patient and ttly knowing what she’s doing). Guardian is all up and working now. Helped me with the project and getting it up again. <3

On Vdex, I just caught a shiny rattata! I’m looking for a shiny sentret. I figure I’ll probably also find a shiny pidgey before I find a sentret though.

I’m still trying to get all the financials sorted out so that I can start my graduate program. -_- It’s been a huge pain. I think I’m making a lot of progress now though. We’ll see!



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