Log in

No account? Create an account

Emotional Breakdown Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ



Previous Entry Share Next Entry
Ryuji - PLiK
Once upon a time I did a writing meme in which you listen to a few songs and write whatever you felt inspired to write while the song played. When it stopped, you did too. And you wrote this way for three or so songs (or however many you wanted). I wanted to do that again today. I love being able to have the extra challenge with free writing, because you never know what extra things you’ll be able to make sense of later. I also put these up at Free Writing.

Still Doll
Kanon Wakeshima
Dancing dolls and fighting soldiers, we might always be apart. But still, I’d dream of you, as I stare out the window. I wish you were here; these letters bring me little comfort. The memory of your smile is almost too much to bear. Miss Alice, how are you tonight? What dreams fill your pretty little head, curls so full and bouncy. Your letters bring me tears when I only want smiles. And if we were more than dancing dolls and fighting soldiers, would it mean anything at all? Another night alone, the sound of the rain echoing my tears. The heart beats alone, waiting for your return. Will that door open? I’d still welcome you home. If you’d but give me the chance, I’d smile upon your return. And I’d smile once more, if you’d but give me the chance. And I can’t bear that you no longer answer. The letters line the window as I wait.

ROMANCE –Incubo-
Where can I find myself? Lost in your eyes again. I fight with the idea, some silly notion, that I’m the only one that lives in this romance. So lost in you, waiting for your touch. Sweet kiss, you might tempt me again. I’d tell myself it didn’t matter for one more smile. As tricky as you might be, I can’t help but wonder what it’d be like to have you to myself. And I sigh at the thought of another wasted moment. Living and fretting over the stupid things we do. And still, you keep me coming back. How many times must I apologize? How many must I count? Where do those memories go as we’re standing back to back. Where is the moment so sweet that we first held? How can you hold it against me, when I love you more than my heart can take? Why? Why do you love me? And I find with every passing moment that I cannot collect my thoughts. I know how much you wan time too. But there’d be no way to really define them in any way that made sense. I’ll let the pieces fall onto the floor as your smile lights up the world. And even though I know you’ll leave me in the morning, I can’t help but want to know what your laughter would sound like. Or what that smile might say, just one more time. Time and time again, I stumble upon the words to build up the silly romance that will fit into my picture perfect mind. But remember, always remember, that more than anything else I really do love you. And even though I cannot express it, there’s something magical about stumbling and falling, simply falling in love with you. The thought keeps me alive, feeling, and growing as I try to find some way to reach out to you.

Namae No Nai Kaibutsu
Fading dreams won’t stop me. Keep trudging forward as memories cloud my eyes. Tears thick on the lashes, I have to keep moving. Fighting, drawing up this stupid blade for a battle I didn’t want to fight. Rushing over marshes and slaying dragons to find a dream I just can’t grasp! And so I slash and fight, tumbling, bleeding as I fight for my own sanity. Trying to make sense of the stupidity and the moment that I made all my claims. And if I had the moment, I’d step back to take a breath. What am I to do now that I fight alone? Wondering where the hell my mind ought to be in the moment. Should this battle kill me? Will the rush of evil overcome me as I flee in futility? Turned against the wall. Drawing up the sword again. I face forward, blood on my brow, wondering how I got here. And I realize it’s stupid. I’m here to fight! Here for myself, some silly dream to hold onto. Keep on fighting, making all my dreams come true. I cannot stop, because I wouldn’t know how too. And I keep going and I’ll keep going until I fall down. Blood pumping, have to find the way. Somewhere within me, I pray that there’s a light to see me through. And what will I do, if I can’t find some reason, the real reason that I need to keep going. And it might be within the blade or deep in my heart. I’ll never know unless I keep going. But where will I go when the battle ends? Oh where the hell am I going without myself. The goal of my future slipping out of my grasp as hands too unsteady pull the blade up once more. Where am I going? And for who? Why do I keep fighting if I can taste only my own defeat and hear it beating within my ears so loudly that it’s going to tear me down? Back to the wall, I’ll keep fighting because it’s all I’ve ever known. And here I stand.

The fairest has been chosen.

Heaven’s Network is Wide Updates:
Hanging Gardens - New Affiliates
Elysian Fields - New Affiliates
Tartarus - New Affiliates
Wings of the Heart - New Affiliates
Free Writing - New category and writing
Rayjah.Net - More projects added

My Pokes!
Powered by LiveJournal.com